Thursday, August 26, 2010

So many things, So little time

So I began this blog, writing about all the things this year that I had committed to.. Sometimes getting overwhelmed I just want to head for the hills!

So many things have happened in the last several months... I thought I would be writing much more than I am now. Let's see...

A couple months ago I headed down south to Silverdale to meet up with Kevin and Kara... While there I started weighing my options... We took a mini tour of the area, seeing all the apartments available, and ministry oportunities were shown as well! I was able to visit the Youth Group that KP is running now, and had a blast! It was an awesome experience! I was given hope of a possible job opportunity as well! So many things to consider... ESPECIALLY when feeling over burdened at home, with A TON on my plate!

At the time I wasn't feeling overly confident in my Young Life ministry; with my girls and campaigners, with Club and connecting with students, and even connection with the other leaders on the team... it was all so new! I had upcoming responcibilities coming up with a wedding that I was going to be singing at... so many details to get through. The song choice changed multiple times! So many questions... What is the sound situation? (the church is not normally equipt with sound equipment) Will I be singing by myself or with someone? If so, when who? (then getting up enough courage to ask...) Then the whole practicing... There was also the whole worship team thing... there are 3 worship teams at GNF. I am on all 3, and co-leading one. Our head coordinator stepped down in December, and we found out that the step in leader is backing off the end of this month! What that means as far as commitment level, and scheduling... Work was getting a little crazy as well, with the economy as it is... Family stuff, with health issues was luming as well! I just felt like everything was caving in, and I couldn't do anything about it!

A week prior to the Silverdale trip, I started thinking about the Summit... The Summit is a Youth Pastor/ Leader conference in Yakima, and KP took a group of us a couple years in a row a few years back. It was an incredible experience each time, and I felt like I needed to be there again... I talked with KP when in at their house, and it was coming up within the next couple weeks. I got home and signed up rightaway! Next thing I knew, time flew and I was on my way!

I made the decision ahead of time that when I got in the car at 5pm that Thursday that I would not think about work, family, roommates, weddings, worship, or anything else looming back in Whatcom County for the entire weekend! The next couple days were going to be purely days and moments between me and God! I got the priviledge of joining my friends Eric, Savannah, Clayton and his wife, Corissa on the way there and back! Great, fun people to enjoy the weekend with!

The Summit 2010 was the best weekend I have had in a VERY LONG TIME!!! I don't know still if I can even put to words what happened there? I felt FREEDOM for the first time in years. I was able to have concentrated intentional talks with God, and was able to take a step back and really evaluate my life as it stood. I didn't have to ask Him any questions, I just allowed God to speak to me...

I returned home with a new sense of "weight lifted off my shoulders". Some people will know exactly what I talk about... My life was officially out of my hands and into God's. Believe it or not, it's a quite freeing experience! :)

I came home knowing that I was exactly where God wanted me for the next spit of time!